Humble Beginnings

The deer in the desert panting at the water brook:
To me this was a great image to start blogging. My life has change dramatically over the past year and many times before I couldn't describe it at all until now. The Psalmist most often can express my heart like no other.

Explore in Psalms 42:1-11

1 As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God.
2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When can I go and meet with God?
3 My tears have been my food
day and night,
while men say to me all day long,
"Where is your God?"
4 These things I remember
as I pour out my soul:
how I used to go with the multitude,
leading the procession to the house of God,
with shouts of joy and thanksgiving
among the festive throng.
5 Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and 6 my God.
My soul is downcast within me;
therefore I will remember you
from the land of the Jordan,
the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.
7 Deep calls to deep
in the roar of your waterfalls;
all your waves and breakers
have swept over me.
8 By day the LORD directs his love,
at night his song is with me—
a prayer to the God of my life.
9 I say to God my Rock,
"Why have you forgotten me?
Why must I go about mourning,
oppressed by the enemy?"
10 My bones suffer mortal agony
as my foes taunt me,
saying to me all day long,
"Where is your God?"
11 Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.

This passage is an expression of thirsting for God in trouble and exile.
I can't say its been exile but trouble to the least bit of my experience. For this currently is the state that I find myself in {As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for you, O God] My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
Prior to now my tears have been my food both day and night. While I sit back a question "Where is my God?" These things I remember as I pour out my soul. Back in Tuskegee I used to go with the multitude,
leading the procession to the house of God,
with shouts of joy and thanksgiving
among the wavering college students. Why now do I find myself downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Is it really the change in geographical location that has ignited this pain in me. I had be shown through the book of Job how to put my hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and 6 my God. I remember my soul is again downcast within. I reflect back to th days on the campus of Tuskegee. I had deep calls, to deep of anguish due to the weight of the world reign over me. By day the LORD directs his love, at night his song is with me a prayer to the God of my life. If I cried out then and it made a permanent eternal change in me. Why do I say to God my Rock,
"Why have you forgotten me?
For I have come to the conclusion from here on out I must put my hope in God.
I must praise him,
my Savior and my God,No matter the circumstance and or condition...even here in the Desert